Proud Homemaker

Being a mom, for me, it means to always have contradictory emotions running through me. I tend to be a bit of a worrier and for me, being “chilled out” is an unfamiliar feeling. Proud mother, that I am, on my on, I am not that confident. Too many things make me angry, outraged, happy, enthused and ecstatic. I have still to figure out the one or two things that could be my calling. And me being me, I can’t seem to be able to do anything I’m not passionate about.
I’ve always had a “deficiency” of “organized thought”. The thoughts just run wild and free, helter-skelter, one on top of the other. There are too many of them and often enough it is difficult to focus on just one.
Not having organized thought makes me a very fickle thinker and makes it very difficult for me to concentrate on one task if there are many things to do, which is almost always the case with a mother & homemaker. Add to this the constant need to read. Just read anything. It could be the newspaper, a paperback, or a book on psychology. It could be about current fashion trends, the global economy, schizophrenia, OCD, Satyajeet Ray, atheism, RHCP, Talveen Singh, breastfeeding, Old-age homes, stilettos, Lake Kilimanjaro, the recipe for Arabiatta sauce, etc., etc., etc.
Add to this the daily onslaught of reading material we get bombarded with. The newspapers can be weighed in kilos on a daily basis. New book releases and magazines on health, mental & physical well being, parenting, the economy & everything else under the sun. What is one to do?? I’m a glutton for ALL of this and more.
And THEN add to this the fact that I’m too much into my child. I just want to be with her ALL THE TIME. Hold her, smell her, fill her brain with thoughts & ideas, play with her etc., etc.
There is so much to do in this world. So much to read, so many new recipes to try, so many films, now that they are so much more creative, realistic & intelligent & therefore more watchable. There is so much new music out there, new plays and new art exhibits, so much creativity. There is so much to talk to your child about ……………
And yep – there is so much cleaning to do….
So I guess I’ll go back to my duties as a “homemaker” & to continue to try & feel proud about my current job:- a proud mother and a homemaker.